libido

i've been trying to train myself in techniques that will keep me from ripping off people's heads. i can get pretty worked up when there's nine people asking me questions that i don't give a fuck about. oh, the worst is when someone asks me to do something, a favor to them, and i'm doing it and they decide they need another favor, only this one's more important so then i freak out because there's TOO MUCH- NOT ENOUGH TIME. only nobody seems to notice or care because it's just me freaking out, not them, and then the whole time this is happening i'm just getting more and more FRANTIC, and then they start to freak out because i'm now ripping my own hair out and screaming bloody fucking murder but i guess it's all just because my dad was never around.

some of said techniques:
1. keeping a positive mental attitude.
2. not forgetting the struggle and also remembering the streets.
3. keeping it real.
4. trying to distract myself with word games and puzzles in tense situations (read: avoiding things).
5. if you simply slice your aggressor in half with a machete you can easily avoid decapitating them.
6. drinking apple juice in the mornings.
7. smoking a lot of weed.