i've been thinking about writing a little lately. after i graduated, i decided to take a total 180 from my life at the time. it's been about nine months since i moved back to k.c., started my new job, a new band, lots of new friendships, lots of old friendships, and a wonderful new relationship. i feel pretty good about the decisions i've made to get where i am, but i think i've started to take things for granted lately and i need a "reality check" as it were. i'm not asking for trouble, and i know a resolution is not going to just drop out of the sky, but i'm sick of just staying afloat. i realize that i'm the master of my own destiny and all, but i feel like more shit should be moving. that's why i said i'd been thinking about writing. i mean...technically, i do have a BA even if they don't send it to me. i think i might start trying to contribute to the pitch because every time i read it it gets less and less like reading a magazine and more and more like opening a scorpion cage and sticking my head in for 20 minutes. i'd also like to do some tutoring...maybe at umkc or jccc. just so i can dress up the old resume a bit. anyway, i think i lost sight of why i really liked writing in the first place on account of my school sucking serious nards there at the end. i've taken too long of a break from reading too, and if i had more time during the week i totally would indulge in that regard. i'm not really looking to writing as a career at this point because of all the other stuff going on. i'm not ready to devote my life to writing yet, i suppose. if i were ready, i would wake up in the morning and write immediately. all day. like a job. that's what writers do. but i have another job. and i like this job. i really do. but i am going to have to see about a raise...
ideally, i'd like to be playing shows all week and sending at least one piece of writing out to be published a week. i'd also still like to have my job at that point, so i better quit dickin' around and do this shit already! never a dull moment! love you guys.
ben
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duty now for the future!
howdy ben!
after applying at every job within walking distance i've realized that degrees don't matter much, and recession is real, and it sucks. if you like your job, for god's sakes, stay there.
i don't know that writing as a career is ever a viable option. even assholes like john grisham made more money practicing law than writing BESTSELLING LEGAL THRILLERS like THE PELICAN BRIEF or THE CLIENT. people who write for money are usually bad writers. case in point: the band "rock bottom remainders". look it up, i read about them in sky mall. on that note...
writing for the pitch is something i'm happy to be doing but not exactly proud of either. the only thing i can compare it to is school, where a lot of times you're turning in substandard work that's barely on time and trying to get a good grade. its so hard to unlearn all of the bullshit i've learned in college. i'd still encourage you to do it, because i bet you'd be good at it, because you're an honest and straightforward dude and that's what they need, and it's always nice to get paid.
enter writing contests! they're everywhere! they usually offer thousand dollar prizes and if nothing else give you incentive to write something that you like.
i hope i don't sound too maternal, cause i don't know what the fuck i'm talking about.
did you know nick cave keeps office hours? just for writing and songwriting? shit makes total sense!
anyway i think you're doing really well, and i think you're really intelligent and funny and you'd be good at just about anything. KEEP IT UP SON. WE SHOULD HANG OUT.
lots of love
flannery
i mean...technically, i do have a BA even if they don't send it to me.
(typical columbia)
you are a good writer.
this one's to you, ben.
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